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Depression setting in...

February 6th, 2018 at 10:40 am

Well, it's winter and typical Seattle weather (cloudy, rainy, so little daylight) so I would be feeling a bit down anyway, but....

(Pausing to pull on my Complainy Pants)....

The gratefulness of saving my eyesight via surgery for detached retina is wearing off. Weekends are great, because I can putter around the house doing chores on my timeline, lay down/nap as much as necessary. I barely get through the workday, and then home to lay on the couch and listen to/watch TV and attempt to get ready for the next workday. Having one blurry eye just makes me MENTALLY tired, because my brain is constantly having to compensate to even out my vision. I'm happy that my eye is healing but I feel like all I can do is count down the days/weeks until my next surgery.

I know what I need to be doing to help myself. First is exercise. I have been holding off because there are a lot of restrictions and I don't want to hurt my eye, but also many things I can still do. My belly is getting soft and I know I'm losing muscle tone. It's really hard to get motivated to start. So that is on me.

The next is diet. I did well last weekend by preparing a few meals to eat this week, but that only lasts partway and then I'm back to trying to put something nutritious together when I am so tired. I need to allow myself permission to get take out occasionally and rely more on convenience foods. But that eats into my "spending diet" goal to reduce my grocery costs.

Last on my complaint list is the medical claims. Luckily, I have $3000 maximum out of pocket for this year, and the company contributed a little to my HSA account. Now the claims are coming in, and I already put most of it (over $2300) on my credit card which I will have to pay off next month. I have the money sitting in my savings account, but dang it, it makes me mad because I have to spend that money!!! I set yearly savings goals last month and I won't be able to meet them because of my stupid eye. Also, I bumped my HSA deduction to the maximum, so that's $60/week going there, and I won't be able to reimburse myself for my out of pocket costs until the end of the year.

Oh one other thing. I did my taxes and I owed $45! So crappy.... one more expense that I didn't expect.

Thanks for letting me vent.

8 Responses to “Depression setting in...”

  1. LivingAlmostLarge Says:

    Do you use money from HSA to pay CC?

  2. creditcardfree Says:

    Only owing $45 is fantastic! You didn't lend the government one more penny than you would owe, which is what a refund is. I sure hope you feel back to yourself soon...I can imagine your body is working overtime to heal. But isn't it amazing that our bodies do heal?!

  3. rob62521 Says:

    One thing I try to do when I'm feeling like hosting a pity party is to think of something I can do for someone else. It doesn't have to be a big thing. It can be sending a note that they wouldn't expect. Or donating something to somewhere whether it is money or something for them to sell to make money like we do for our local thrift shop for a school. Or bake some cookies and surprise someone with a "JB" gift. JB = no reason, just because.

  4. Bluebird Says:

    I'm sorry you're feeling down, and I totally get it...dealing with an injury, effects of weather, etc. Try to give yourself a break and not expect too much too fast. If you need to just do the bare minimum for awhile until you're feeling better, that's ok!

  5. Sallyr70 Says:

    LAL: I have to accumulate enough $ in the HSA account... so I plan to reimburse myself near the end of the year. For now, I will pay the CC with money in my savings.

  6. PatientSaver Says:

    I'm glad your eye surgery went okay. Your health and well-being is what's most important, and I'm glad you will be able to cover the costs, despite setting you back on some of your savings goals. I do hope you plan to pay those credit card bills where you charged the surgery bills in full when they come due.

    Sometimes it's 1 step forward, 2 steps backwards. But all in all, I think you're doing pretty well.

  7. Sallyr70 Says:

    Thank you so much for your support and advice! I am going to focus on others and try to do nice "JB" things! What a great idea. I will pay my credit card in full. At least I will earn the 1% rebate on the charge that I can apply to a future Amazon order.

  8. LuckyRobin Says:

    Taking vitamin d can help with seasonal depression. My doctor recommends 4000 IU in September, October, February, and March and 6000 IU in November, December, and January. Then 2000 IU the rest of the year. You live slightly south of me so we are in the same light zone and constant overcast weather. He also recommends having a serving of cashews every day as it releases chemicals in your brain that help.

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